Random Thoughts

Have you ever had a time in your life where you're going through many trials and tribulations? A time where you begin to wonder whether you're going to make it through the end of the day? Do you want to stand on a mountaintop and scream at the top of your lungs, "I quit!"? That's exactly how i've been feeling lately. There's so much happening in my life, and I can't see the tunnel at the end of the light... oops!!! I mean the light at the end of the tunnel (just making sure you're really hearing me out).

I've been talking to one of my dear friends (name withheld). This young woman is one of the strongest people I know, because she's been through so much stuff like suffering from CP, loosing her dad and a brother who has mental issues(and YOU think you've been through it all...hmmm), but never gets tired of encouraging and uplifting others when they need someone by their side.

I've been asking her to help me figure out why i'm going through this season, and although she doesn't have the answers to my 2010 questions, one thing she keeps saying is that God is preparing me for something bigger and better, because HE wants to use me. The vision He put in her heart for me is that when God completes whatever he's preparing me for, i'll come out stronger, and that one day i'll be able to uplift and encourage someone else who might be going through a similar situation as me.

Now that's scary! Just when i'm beginning to feel like I can't hang in there, God uses this wonderful sister to tell me such powerful words. Because of all i've been facing, one of the 2010 questions i've been asking God is whether He has a purpose for me, and if He does, what His purpose for me is. Through my friend, i'm beginning to better understand that God really does have a purpose for me, and that He has good plans in store for me.

However, all these tests have led me to actually pose for a sec and ask myself two pressing questions: 1. "Is there more to life?" 2. "Why does God allow suffering?" Can anyone help me figure this out?

Feel free to drop your thoughts and comments, they'll highly appreciated.